刍狗狗の小窝

We were ejected out of the spaceship, now we are drifting in the universe. Sun is getting smaller and smaller, diminutive. The world is getting darker and darker. A huge wall forms in front of us. The wall is bright, like a massive white screen. An apple suddenly came to my mind, the concept, the smell, the taste, the color, the nutrition of an apple are intertwined in my head, and bubble up from the bottom of my consciousness.

Time is flying or flowing. We are dying. Alcohol isn’t doing us any good, it makes us feel the time being slower, but in reality it just slowly kills us. We are living. A dog is barking in front of us, a chihuahua is jumping and barking at a huge dinosaur, fearlessly. We laugh at the chihuahua, but we’ve got a lot to learn from this little creature. We’ve become too accustomed to being a processor.

I don’t know why I am doing this, maybe it’s because I am crazy. I am running around the square, no one cares. I am running around the square, someone sees me. I am running around the square, I feel wind. I am running around the square, I wanna scream. I am running around the square, I high five with every human I encounter. I am running around the square, I have a QR code on my T-Shirt.

When you want to hurry something, that means you no longer care about it and want to get on to other things. McDonalds, McKinsey, CNN, iPhone, Google, Moon landing, what are they? Slow down. I want to start farming, but I don’t have a field. No need to hurry, let’s just steal some soil first.

Huh, 2021 finished, 2021 is certainly different than 2020, but how? COVID-19 is still here, humans are still not extinct. We saw reports of different animals getting infected, but the virus doesn’t seem to be doing much to them, thank god. When we drink water, water goes through us, it doesn’t stay, just like time. We are drinking the same water dinosaurs were drinking millions of years ago. I saw a mummy, the hair and nails were like they are from yesterday, she is beautiful and probably was as well.

Communist, Donald Trump, Washington state, Washington, D.C., The falling man, H&M, Germany, Mao Zedong, God, Universe, You and Me. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die. An endless party is waiting for us.

Mind is a weird concept. 1 21 guns, lay down your arms, give up the fight. 1 21 guns, throw up your arms, into the sky, you and I~ What shall I do to not give a fuck? I am too sensitive, too concerned, too worried, too sarcastic, too pessimistic about my life. I am giving too much fuck for living a good life which itself makes the life miserable. Maybe I should take a moment to forget/forgive myself and worry about climate change.

Fuck yeah, 2020 is finished. I will miss you, you little, naughty, cute, cunt, crazy, badass, punk, pure, innocent virus. I had a dream with you last night, it could be the new strain, the old strain, or a strain yet to come. In the dream, the virus was in tears. “I just want to have my children, my grandchildren, you know, it’s in my gene, like you guys.” “Yes, I know, calm down, it’s not your fault.

我的父亲是一个小偷。 在深夜，我把他偷来的钱偷走，偷偷放回失主的口袋。 我也成了一个小偷。

I am dying, we are dying, the universe is dying. A comforting fact. I don’t care if my soul still exists after I die, I don’t care if I go to heaven or hell after I die, I don’t care if you will miss me after I die, I don’t care if I will have another life after I die, I don’t care. But I do like to imagine the death of our universe.